Love Me - Chapter Thirty Four

I get to my feet and walk out of the bathroom. I'm still shaking from the attack. It was so close I can't believe that I'm still alive and intact. I feel my head start to spin as my knees grow weak. Dimitri grabs ahold of me to steady me. My dark night has come to rescue me. 

Dimitri moves in front of me and then drops to his knee. He holds my hand and then rests his head on my belly. I almost want to jump, but something deep down starts pulling at my heart. The feelings for Dimitri are resurfacing. I can't do this, I can't let my heart fall for him.

"Emily, please don't pull away from me," he says with a sadness I have not seen him show before. This is a side I'm not used to seeing. He has always been strong and confident with his emotions. "Does it not matter what I have told you? Please, Emily, I can't lose you again," he begs. Before thinking, I reach up to run my fingers through his hair to comfort him but catch myself. "I can't do this. I can't live this way," I whisper. 

He stands up as I drop to my knees. He places his hands on my shoulders. I can feel that he's still sad without even looking at him. "I can protect you," he says. "No, you can't, I will never be safe as long as I'm alive. Why don't you just kill me?" I sigh. "Emily, I could never hurt you. Don't you see that I can't live without you?" Dimitri whispers.

Suddenly, without warning, he pulls me up from the floor, dragging me by the hand out of the room. "Where are we going?' I ask as I try to keep up. He doesn't answer as he unlocks a door and leads me into a beautiful bedroom.

"This is where I sleep, you will be safe here with me. I want you to be with me all the time. I'm stunned as I wrap my head around this. "Is this where you and Jen sleep?" I ask with anger laced in my voice.

I see Dimitri took it just as I thought he would. He guessed what I was thinking. "You think! No, I have......not slept with Jen like you think. Yes, she sleeps in my room but not with me," he hisses. I jump and find myself stepping back away from him.

"Do I mean that little to you! Did I not show you that I loved you?" he shouts as he shows his fangs.

"I'm............sorry," I gasp as I step back from him.

Dimitri's face softens. "Emily, look, this is a little hard to just explain all at once. It all happened so fast. I went down the day that we fought with the Nightwalkers. I thought you were dead. When I woke up, I realized they had turned me into one of them. They tried to convince me that they killed you with the rest of your family. I could not come to terms with your death and this new life that had been presented to me. I went to end my life when your sister stopped me. She revealed that you had escaped and was still being hunted. This gave me hope but also scared me. I knew they would not give up until they found you. I had to find you before they did. 

My one hope became a reality when I spotted you that one night down by the beach. I had to follow you to make sure that it was, in fact, you. The purple hair and your looks have changed a little. When I was sure I had to have you with me," he says.

"So you have been looking for me all this time?" I ask. "Not at first. I had to adjust to what I am. I had to get myself under control and to deal with what happened. I will tell you the story one day but not tonight. I have not been with no other since you, I have no room for anyone else. When I came here, I was forced to choose a bond. Jen is my bond, she is linked to me by a spell that keeps her safe and for whatever I choose. I have chosen to be kind to her. She shares my room, and that is all. I feed off her when I am not able to hunt, and that is hardly at all. She talked to me to keep me company when I was lonely, but that's it," he says. I'm floored.

Dimitri pulls me into his arms, holding me tight, and I find that it's a comfort this time. "I'm sorry for all of this. I wish I could have been stronger while I was human. That we could have lived a happy life together with your family, but they won. I will not let them have you," he says."Hannah said that once they found out that I was here, they would never allow us to be together. With your bond with Jen, you will never be able to protect me like you can with her," I whisper as I inhale his scent."Let me worry about that," he says. 

"Take a walk with me," he says as he grabs my hand, lacing his fingers in mine. He leads me outside with only the stars lighting our way. It's a beautiful night with a warm breeze that flows through my hair. "Let's spend some time together, so you can get comfortable around the new me and not what I use to be," he says.

"There is so much I would love to know, but I just don't know if I can love you as a Nightwalker," I tell him. I peek up at him, and he's not surprised. I was expecting a hurt look, but he's not. He's got almost a small smile playing on his lips.

"There is much I want to tell you. I think you will see everything in a different light when you know everything. Let's just take it slow," Dimitri says as he smirks at me. Get to know him better, what else is there to know other than he's a Nightwalker that drinks blood. I can't help but feel like he is hiding something from me, but what could it be?  

 He comes to a stop and turns to me. He runs his cold fingers along my cheek that sends chills down me. It's got me excited but weary at the same time. I lean into his hand as I close my eyes. I try to remember him like he was before he was changed. I feel my heart yearn for his touch. This is something I can't seem to wrap my head around. Am I damaged beyond love? I have no idea. I don't know if it's even possible to love him. I want to deep down, but I have no idea if I can. 

"Emily," Dimitri snaps me out of my thoughts. "Come, I want to show you something," She says as he leads me around the house. When we get to the back of the house, he sits down on the ground, then motions for me to join him. I sit down beside him, he pulls me to him so that we are arm to arm. He leans in as I catch my breath. He points to the sky as he shows me the constellation of stars. 

"I see it, I call out to Dimitri. He follows my hand to another constellation of stars. He leans closer to where I can feel his breath on my bare shoulder. I feel a chill run over me. Then I'm hit with a drop of rain. I blink as another hits my cheek. 

Dimitri pulls me up, and we run toward the house to get out of the rain. 

We bust through the door, and he's smiling at me with water dripping off him. He's wet and smiling, and it's a beautiful site to see him carefree and happy with me. 

I laugh for the first time in a long time. I throw my head back and giggle like a schoolgirl."What's is so funny?" Dimitri asks me with a smirk on his face. I can't stop laughing to answer him. "Well, if I knew dragging you out in the rain would make you so happy, I would have done it sooner," he laughs. "Oh Dimitri," I giggle. 

Dimitri grabs me crushing me to him. His lips kiss me fiercely as I freeze in shock. I gasp between his kisses and feel myself being pulled in. My mind is racing, as my body starts to betray me. A small moan escapes my lips. 

Dimitri releases me, and I'm almost frozen. In that kiss, I felt it. His love, his world, all ready to be laid out for me. I'm hit with emotions that almost choke me. Here it is, I must decide to either accept him like this or leave him forever. 

Blind Fury - Thirty Three

I'm in the bathroom finishing up when I hear the door being unlocked. I head toward the bedroom, expecting Dimitri. He told me he would be coming by later.

I come out of the bathroom, and freeze when I see this strange man. His eyes are red, and his skin is pale. He's another Nightwalker. Within a matter of seconds, he shoves me up against the wall holding my face in place. His body has me pinned to the point that I can't move. I stop breathing as his cold hand grips my chin as his cold red eyes stare me.  

I knee him in the stomach just enough for him to loosen his grip on me so I can break free. I dart toward the door hoping that he left it unlocked. I turn the knob as I watch him standing there, amused at my panic. I dart toward the bathroom, knowing I have nowhere else to run. 

I make it to the bathroom, and with one swift move, he grabs me pulling me toward him and down to the ground. His face is so close to mine as I see him bare his fangs. Just when I think he's going to sink his teeth into me. He pushes me further to the ground.

 He's got me by the throat, and my hands pinned above my head. His cold eyes lock on me. Pushing my legs apart, he presses his body into mine. I gasp..........

"Please! Don't hurt me," I plead. "Oh my pretty little thing, you have no idea what plans I have for you. Not only are you mouth-watering, your beautiful," he says with a cold smile that sends chills all over me.

Pulling my face to the side, I can feel his breath on my neck. He runs his tongue up my neck as he runs his hand up my thigh. I try to wiggle out of his hold, but he's too strong.

"Were going to have some fun," he says as he reaches the top of my thigh. I feel the warm tears run down my cheeks as I try to brace myself for the horror about ready to happen. I close my eyes and try to imagine I'm somewhere else.

Just when I think he's about ready to take me. I hear a welcoming voice. I have never been so happy to hear his voice as I am now. I can feel the man being pried off me.

"You dare!" Dimitri shouts at the guy as he pulls him off the ground by his throat. "Release me, you fool," the man growls. "She's mine, and only mine," Dimitri hisses.

I scramble to the far corner of the bathroom as they face off with each other. "She's not yours. She's fair game. You have no bond to her," he says.

Dimitri loses it. He slams the guy right into a beam. With a loud thud, the man grunts as he makes contact. Then Dimitri grabs the guy and slams him again. I can only watch the horror unfold.

After slamming him a couple more times. Dimitri grabs the man and pulls him up to face him. "Now about that bond. I don't need a bond. She's mine! I will not tell you again," Dimitri hisses. The guy looks stunned and decides the battle is not worth fighting.

I find myself shaking as I sit on the cold floor. The man leaves, and within a minute, Dimitri pulls me into his arms. I'm trembling with fear even though I know I am safe now that Dimitri is here with me. "Are you alright? Please tell me he didn't hurt you," Dimitri asks. His cold hands stroke my back and hold my face.

"Thanks to you, I am," I say as I pull him close to me. A creature of darkness has become my salvation. I know I shouldn't let my guard down, but in the same breath, I can feel that ache in my heart as we hold each other, not saying a word.

He pulls me up off the floor, and with those eyes, his once brown lovely eyes that are traced with red stare at me. How can he still have this effect on me? "Be with me," he says as he pulls me closer. 

"Please, I need you. I may be a Nightwalker, but I love you. I can't be without you. We were destined to be with each other. I can never love anyone but you. You have my heart," he says. "I.............. don't see a future that has us together in it," I reply as I feel my heartbreaking.

He releases me as his face falls. He walks over to the sink leaning on it. His back is facing me. I can see his face in the mirror. I have never seen this side of Dimitri. It's pulling at every feeling I have for him. I see tears run down his face.

I sink to the floor as I see Dimitri cry. I didn't think it was possible until now. Maybe he does still have a heart. But where would this leave us if I did choose this path to go down? How could we actually be together and be happy?

Confessions of the Heart - Chapter Thirty Two

She walks in and finds me crumbled on the floor sobbing. "I don't want to hurt your feelings, it's just you will have to talk to him about his personal business. I don't get into his affairs. I just do what I'm told to do, she tells me. I cry even harder as my mind runs wild. Jen leans down, placing a hand on my shoulder. It will be alright, just talk to him," she says as she tries to reassure me. 

I try to pull myself together as I get up off the floor. "Here is where you can take a bath. I will need to go the supplies to get your hair to your natural color. I will be back as soon as possible. "I am sorry," she mumbles as she leaves me in the bathroom alone. 

Sinking down into the hot bath, I get lost in my thoughts. Dimitri keeps flashing in my memory as the pain laces through me each time I see those red eyes. I wonder what Chris is doing, and if he's ok. I should have listened to him, I'm such an idiot. I will never forgive myself if anything happens to him. 

I finish bathing and get dressed when I hear my name. "Emily," Jen calls. "I'm in the bathroom," I call out to her. She comes in with some items in a bag. Ok, let's get started. First, we need to get your hair dyed. I know you probably love the purple but remember, I'm only doing what I'm told," she says as she pulls the items out. 

She lays out new clothes that I'm to wear. I feel like someone dressing me up like a doll. After getting dressed, I step back in front of the mirror to see my old self staring back at me. I hate it. It brings back so many sad and scary memories. 

"You look amazing," Jen says with excitement. "I don't feel amazing," I mumble quietly. I just want all this over. Why in the world would he go to this much trouble if he's going to kill me? It's just drawing out my agony, I think to myself.  

"Please give him a chance. I have been with him since he came here after being turned. I know how he feels about you. He talks in his sleep," she says. 

My heart sinks. He talks in his sleep? I can't wrap my mind around it. He sleeps with her. She's his.................. Oh no. She's talking to me, but I can no longer listen to her. I'm just numb at this point, and she's asking me to give him a chance. She's done been brainwashed. What have they done to this poor girl? "I have to go, for now, I will meet up with you later," she says as she leaves me in the room, standing there speechless.  

It's getting late and no sign of Dimitri, Jen or anyone else. It's so quiet, it's eerie. I have only been provided with this one outfit. I'm getting tired no matter how much I want to stay up. So I take off the dress leaving me in my underwear. I go over and sit down in front of the fireplace. I'm lost in my thoughts again. My life was torn upside down for the millionth time and with no happiness in sight. Would this be my life? The constant drama, the life-threatening events, and oh, let's not forget everyone dying or becoming a damn Nightwalker.

I'm beyond tired, so I head over to the bed. I climb in, taking comfort in the covers. I toss and turn in fear of one of them coming in while I'm asleep to attack me. Every noise has me jumping.

After several hours I must have given in and fallen asleep. The sound of a door jars me awake. My body protests as I sit up to see Dimitri walking over to me. I gasp for air as it leaves my lungs.

I jump out of bed as he reaches me. He stands in front of me. He lifts his hand to my face, which makes me jump. He strokes my cheek with his cold fingers. His face gives nothing away. Get dressed," he says. That's when I'm fully aware that I'm standing in my underwear. I scurry in the bathroom, where I find an outfit set out. I pull on a pair of jeans with a pink top. 

When I come out of the bathroom, I find Dimitri sitting by the fireplace. He sits there, not moving, not saying a word. He's so quiet that it unnerves me. I can't take the silence that is lingering between us. "Why are you doing this to me?" I ask. He stays quiet as the time passes by in silence. "You're not telling me something," he says, never making eye contact with me. My heart sinks. Oh no, he knows about Chris and me and the baby. How did he find out? How am I going to tell him without hurting him? Knowing he's a nightwalker, I still feel the guilt run all over me.

I sink to the floor at his feet. I can't even look at him. In a small voice, "I was pregnant, but lost the baby not too long ago." 

All of a sudden, Dimitri sits up and begins to stroke my cheek. "You were pregnant!" he says with a hint of hurt in his voice. "Yes, I was but............" I trail off. "It's ok, things happen. Why would I be mad at you for that?" he asks. 

This is it. I got to tell him. I................Me and............Chris well........," I stutter. "Emily tell me," he demands. "Me and Chris were together." I finally choke out as the tears start to run down my face.

Dimitri drops his hand and sets back into his chair. "Did you love him? Did you sleep with him? Was he the father?" he says with anger that I have not heard before. It's laced with venom that turns my stomach. "You were the father, I don't know if I love Chris. I think I did, or still do. I'm so confused.  This is too much. You were........, are still dead." I say. "Did you sleep with him?" he asks with ice laced in his voice.

"Yes," I whisper. His face grows cold and hard. "Unfortunate thing. I actually liked Chris." he sighs. "What's that mean?" I ask. "Nothing to concern yourself with," he replies.

"Don't you hurt Chris," I shout at him. He raises up, tower over me. He's hurt and angry. "Chris is innocent, you leave him out of this, promise me," I beg.

He says nothing. He runs his fingertips across his chin as he appears to be waging an inner battle.

"Please, don't hurt him. He.............."Dimitri looks away. "Stop Emily, I will not promise you anything," he says as he cuts me off. I'll meet up with you later. Get yourself cleaned up," he says as he leaves me standing alone in the room. Oh no, what have I done, what's he going to do?